Choosing When To Go by Lee Kuan Yew
All the passages below are taken from Lee Kuan Yew’s book, “One man’s View of the World,” published in 2013.
My
daily routine is set. I wake up, clear my email, read the newspapers,
do my exercises and have lunch. After that, I go to my office at the
Istana, clear more papers and write articles or speeches. In the
afternoons and evenings, I sometimes have interviews scheduled with
journalists, after which I may spend an hour or two with my Chinese
teachers.
I
have made it a habit to exercise daily. At the age of 89, I can sit up
and I do not need a walking stick. When I was in my 30s, I was fond of
smoking and drinking beer. I quit smoking because it was causing me to
lose my voice at election campaigns. That was before medical research
linked smoking to lung and throat cancer, among other things. Oddly
enough, I later became hyper-allergic to smoke. The drinking gave me a
beer belly and it was showing up in pictures appearing in the press. I
began to play more golf to keep fit, but later on turned to running and
swimming, which took me less time to achieve the same amount of aerobic
exercise. Now, I walk on the treadmill three times a day ---12 minutes
in the morning, 15 minutes after lunch and 15 minutes after dinner.
Before dinner, I used to swim for 20 to 25 minutes. Without that, I
would not be in my present condition physically. It is a
discipline.
I
continue to make appointments to meet people. You must meet people,
because you must have human contact if you want to broaden your
perspective. Besides people in Singapore, I meet those from Malaysia,
Indonesia, and, from time to time, China, Europe and the United States. I
try not to meet only old friends or political leaders, but people from a
variety of fields, such as academics, businessmen, journalists and
ordinary people.
I
have cut down on my overseas trips significantly, because of the
jetlag, especially when travelling to the US. Until 2012, I was still
travelling to Japan once a year to speak at the Future of Asia
Conference --- now into its 19th year, organised by the Japanese media corporation, Nihon Keizai Shimbun (Nikkei).
For a time, I was going to China nearly once a year, although I am
reluctant to go to Beijing now because of the pollution. But the leaders
are there, so you have to go there to meet them. The JP Morgan
International Council, which I am on, did me the honour of holding its
2012 annual meeting in Singapore, so did the Total Advisory Board. Going
to France is all right. It is a 12-hour direct flight on an Airbus 380,
there and back. But to go to New York is much more tiring ---
especially because of the time change, from night into day and day into
night. Travelling overseas helps me widen my horizons. I see how other
countries are developing. No country or city stays static. I have seen
London and Paris change, over and over again.
Being
out of government means I am less well-informed of what is going on and
the pressures for change. I therefore go by the decisions of the
ministers, by and large. I seldom express a contrary opinion --- at
least, much less than when I was in government and attended Cabinet
meetings, which allowed me to participate fully in the debates.
Occasionally,
when I disagree strongly with something, I make my views known to the
Prime Minister. There was au instance of this when the government was
looking to reintroduce Chinese dialect programmes on free-to-air
channels. A suggestion was made: "Mandarin is well-established among the
population now. Let us go back to dialects so the old can enjoy
dramas:" I objected, pointing out that I had, as prime minister, paid a
heavy price getting the dialect programmes suppressed and encouraging
people to speak Mandarin. So why backtrack? I had antagonised an entire
generation of Chinese, who found their favourite dialect programmes cut
off. There was one very good narrator of stories called Lee Dai Sor on
Rediffusion, and we just switched off his show. Why should I allow
Cantonese or Hokkien to infect the next generation? If you bring it
back, you will find portions of the older generation beginning to speak
in dialects to their children and grandchildren. It will creep back,
slowly but surely.
Every
country needs one language that everybody understands. It was a
difficult enough task integrating the four language streams the British
left us with. The Chinese schools, where the majority of Chinese
students were enrolled, were proud of their language, especially with
the rise of a new Communist China from 1949. I had to fight on many
fronts to make English the language of all schools and the mother
tongues the second language. Chinese language chauvinists battled
against this policy tooth and nail. The Chinese newspapermen and schools
wanted to prop up their student and readership numbers. Because my
command of Chinese then was inadequate, Li Vei Chen, my Chinese press
secretary at the time, kept the Chinese press, Chinese middle schools as
well as Nanyang University and their staff and supporters under tight
control to minimise or prevent demonstrations, go-slows and strikes.
Eventually,
it was the market value of an education in English that settled the
problem. Hence, we have today's Singapore, with English connecting us to
the world and attracting the multinational corporations, and the mother
tongues as second language keeping us linked to C'hina, India and
Indonesia. This was a critical turning point. Had the people chosen the
other path, Singapore would be a backwater.
For
sentimental reasons and practical reasons of trade and business with
China, we need Chinese as a second language. But we certainly do not
need the dialects. To undo now what we had spent so much time, energy
and political capital achieving --- the removal of' dialects from the
mass media---would be very foolish.
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Life
is better than death. But death comes eventually to everyone. It is
something which many in their prime may prefer not to think about. But
at 89, I see no point in avoiding the question. What concerns me is: How
do I go? Will the end come swiftly, with a stroke in one of the
coronary arteries? Or will it be a stroke in the mind that lays me out
in bed for months, semi-comatose? Of the two, I prefer the quick one.
Some
time back, I had an Advanced Medical Directive (AMD)) done which says
that if I have to be fed by a tube, and it is unlikely that I would ever
be able to recover and walk about, my doctors are to remove the tube
and allow me to make a quick exit. I had it signed by a lawyer friend and a doctor.
If you do not sign one, they do everything possible to prevent the inevitable.
I have seen this in so many cases. My brother-in-law on my wife’s side,
Yong Nyuk Lin, had a tube. He was at home, and his wife was lying in
bed, also in a poor shape. His mind was becoming blank. He is dead now.
But they kept him going for a few years. What is the point of that?
Quite often, the doctors and relatives of the patient believe they
should keep life going. I do not agree. There is an end to everything
and I want mine to come as quickly and painlessly as possible, not with
me incapacitated, half in coma in bed and with a tube going into my
nostrils and down to my stomach. In such cases, one is little more than a
body.
I am not given to making
sense out of life --- or coming up with some grand narrative on it
---other than to measure it by what you think you want to do in life. As
for me, I have done what I had wanted to, to the best of my ability. I
am satisfied.
Different
societies have different philosophical explanations for life and the
hereafter. If you go to America, you will find fervent Christians,
especially in the conservative Bible Belt covering much of the country's
south. In China, despite decades of Maoist and Marxist indoctrination,
ancestral worship and other traditional Buddhist or Taoist-based
religious practices are commonplace. In India, belief in reincarnation
is widespread.
I
wouldn't call myself an atheist. I neither deny nor accept that there
is a God. The universe, they say, came out of the Big Bang. But human
beings on this earth have developed over the last 20,000 years into
thinking beings, and are able to see beyond themselves and think about
themselves. Is that a result of Darwinian evolution? Or is it God? I do
not know. So I do not laugh at people who believe in God. But I do not
necessarily believe in God -- nor deny that there could be one.
I
had a very close friend, Hon Sui Sen, who was a devout Roman Catholic.
When he was dying, the priest was there next to him. At 68, he was
young, but he was also absolutely fearless. As a Roman Catholic, he
believed that he would meet his wife in the hereafter. I wish I can meet
my wife in the hereafter, but I don't think I will. I just cease to
exist just as she has ceased to exist---otherwise the other world would
be overpopulated. Is heaven such a large and limitless space that you
can keep all the peoples of the world over the thousands of years past? I
have a large question mark on that. But Sui Sen believed that and it
gave him a certain tranquillity of mind as he went through his last
moments with his priest. His wife, who died in November 2012, believed
they would meet again.
Those
around me who may have tried to proselytise to me no longer do so
because they know it is a hopeless case. My wife had a friend she knew
from school who was very religious and kept trying to convert her. In
the end, she stayed away from her friend, saying: "It is absurd. Every
time we meet she wants to convert me into a Christian." She did not
believe in the afterlife --- although, admittedly, it is comforting if
you believe there is an afterlife even if there is none.
With
every passing day I am physically less energetic and less active. If
you ask me to go out in the heat of the sun at two o'clock to meet
people, shake hands and kiss babies, I will not be able to do it. I
could do it 20, 30 years ago, but not anymore. You take life as it
comes, with your physical capabilities declining over the years.
Sometimes my secretary would see me resting in my office and would ask
me whether they should cancel the next meeting. Sometimes, I would say:
"No, let's get on with it." I need 15 minutes for a shut-eye, so that my
mind can concentrate after that. But if I cannot, I would say: "Yes,
put it off: Let me have a nap." You cannot predict what your physical
condition will be like. However rigorous and disciplined I am, it will
still be a downhill slide.
In
the end, my greatest satisfaction in life comes from the fact that I
have spent years gathering support, mustering the will to make this
place meritocratic, corruption-free and equal for all races --- and that
it will endure beyond me, as it has. It was not like that when I took
office. The Lim Yew Hock government was already going corrupt. Younger
Singaporeans may not be familiar with a man by the name of Mak Pak Shee,
a member of that government. He was an Indian Cantonese with a
moustache, and he was what you would call a fixer --- somebody who
facilitated the fulfilment of favours for a fee.
Singapore,
as it stands, is the one corruption-free spot in a region where
corruption is endemic. The institutions have been created to keep it
that way, with the anti-corruption bureau. People are promoted on the
basis of merit, not of race, language or religion. If we uphold these
institutions, we will continue to make progress. That is my greatest
hope. [295-301]
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An editorial team from The Straits Times
comprising Han Fook Kwang, Elgin Toh, Zuraidah Ibrahim, Chua Mui Hoong
and Shashi Jayakumar (an administrative Officer on secondment to the Lee
Kuan Yew School of Public Policy) asked the questions below.
Q: You have said before that you consider yourself a nominal Buddhist. Would you still describe yourself as such?
A:
Yes, I would. I go through the motions and the rituals. I am not a
Christian. I am not a Taoist. I do not belong to any special sect.
Q: When you say "rituals”, what do you mean?
A:
On set days you've got to give offerings to your ancestors --- food and
so on. All that is laid out by the servants. But it will go off after
my generation. It is like clearing the graves during Qing Ming. With
each passing generation, fewer people go. It is a ritual.
Q: Where do you draw your comfort from, if not from religion?
A:
It is the end of any aches and pains and suffering. So I hope the end
will come quickly. At 89, I look at the obituary pages and see very few
who have outlived me. And I wonder: How have they lived? How have they
died? After long illness? Incapacity? When you are 89 you will think
about these things. I would advise that if you do not want to be
comatose or half-comatose in bed and fed through a tube, do an AND. Do
not intervene to save life.
Q: The number of people who do this in Singapore is still very low, for some reason.
A: Well, because they don't want to face up to it.
Q: Are you in favour of euthanasia, which some countries have legalised?
A:
I think under certain conditions where it is not used to get rid of old
people and it is a personal decision of a man taken rationally to
relieve himself from suffering, I would say yes, like the Dutch. So in
my AMD, I am in fact saying: "Let me go."
Q: If a grandchild of yours comes to you and asks you what a good life is, what do you say to him?
A:
I have grandchildren in their 20s. They don't ask me what a good life
is. They know what it is. There's been a change in the physical world
they live in, the people they meet, a change in generations and
different objectives to what people do in life.
Q: Are you saying that it is not possible to influence young people these days?
A:
No, you can influence the basic attitudes from the day they are born to
about 16 or 17. After that --- sometimes earlier --- they have a mind
of their own and they are influenced by what they see around them and by
their peers.
Q: You
spoke about not believing you would meet your wife in the hereafter. Do
you not hold out such a hope, even in your quieter moment? Is it not
human to do so?
A: No, it goes against logic. Supposing we all have a life after death, where is that place?
Q: Metaphysical, perhaps?
A: So we are ghostly figures? No, I don't think so.
Q: How often do you think of' Mrs Lee?
A:
I have an urn with her ashes and I have told my children to put my
ashes next to hers in a columbarium, for sentimental purposes.
A: Not
really. She's gone. All that is left behind are her ashes. I will be
gone and all that will be left behind will be ashes. For reasons of sentiment, well, put them together. But to meet in afterlife? Too good to be true. But the Hindus believe in reincarnation, don't they?
Q: It is in the Hindu creed, yes.
A: If you lead a good life, you come out in a better shape in the next world. You lead a bad life, you become a dog or something.
A: But they are not so sharp in their conceptions of the hereafter.
Q: Is your routine these days very different compared to when you were still in Cabinet?
A: Of course. The pressure is not there.
Q: But you are somebody who has always coped very well with pressure.
A: Well, the pressure of office means a decision has to be made. And when several decisions come at the same time, you've got to look at the questions carefully and decide. Once you have decided, you cannot backtrack. It is a different kind of pressure.
Q: Do you miss having that sort of pressure?
A: No, no. Why should I miss it? I have done my share.
Q: And would you say you miss attending Cabinet meetings, and the opportunity to interact with younger ministers?
A: No, I think the time has come for me to move on. I am 89. Compared to my world and the reference points that I have fixated in my mind, the map of Singapore --- the psychological map
of Singapore --- has changed. I used to visit the houusing estates. I
used to know people from the residents' committees well. I interacted
with them. I had a good feel of the ground. Now I do not have that. I
have to go by reports, which is not the same thing. So I have to leave
it to the people in charge who do go around.
Q: Do you regret the decision to step out of government shortly after the 2011 general election?
A:
No. How can I carry on making decisions when I am losing the energy to
make contact with people on the ground? It requires a lot of physical
energy. The mental effort does not bother me because I have not had a
stroke nor am I going into dementia. But I lack the physical energy.
Before this interview, I had a light lunch, did my treadmill routine and
then rested for 15 minutes. I did not need that in the past.
Q: So you have no unfinished business that you had wanted to...
A:
No, I have done what I had wanted to do. I gave up my duties as prime
minister to Gob Chok Tong. I helped him. He passed them on to Lee Hsien
Loong. It is a different generation now. So my contributions are less
meaningful --- except when they want to go back on dialects.
Q: How is your health, if I may ask?
A:
I was recently hospitalised after experiencing what the doctors said
was a transient ischaemic attack. But I have since recovered fully and
have returned to work. If you take into account the fact that I am in my
90th year... the doctors have told me there is no benchmark for people of that age.
Q: You set the benchmark. So you are reasonably happy with your physical and mental state at the moment?
A:
No, you have to accept the gradual decline in your physical abilities.
So far the mental capabilities have not declined, which has happened to
some of my friends. I am grateful for that. I think it is largely due to
inherited genes. But the physical ageing --- you cannot stop it.
Q: Your mental faculties --- could that be due to your mental habits as well? You are someone who has kept himself mentally very occupied and interested in what is happening.
A: Yes, of course. And I keep on learning new words and phrases in Chinese, so that I am forced to. It is like playing mahjong.
Q: Have your dietary habits changed over the years?
A: Well, I no longer eat to my heart's content. I stop before I am full. I also try to eat more vegetables and less protein.
Q: At an interview with The Straits Times when you turned 80, you said one worry you had was the narrowing window that people
who are ageing tend to have, and that it gets smaller and smaller, that
would be the end of existence. Is that something that you still think
about --- keeping that window open?
A: Yes. Otherwise I would be sitting alone. Why should I meet you and talk to you?
Q: Are you afflicted by loneliness sometimes?
A:
You have to distinguish between loneliness and solitude. I had a friend
who was one of the brightest students in Cambridge. He is dead now. His
name was Percy Cradock. He had a wife who was Danish and had diabetes.
She had lost two legs. Percy used to say: "I enjoy my solitude." And I
said: "Get hold of the computer and go on Google. You can get all the
poems that you have read and enjoyed, purple passages from works of
literature. You just type in the keywords. It will come out.” And he
did.
Q: What newspapers – or Internet sites --- do you read regularly?
A: I read The Straits Times and Lianhe Zaobai. I used to read Berita Harian also but now I don't. I used to be very good with my Malay but it is not necessary now that most Malays in Singapore speak English. I follow closely on the Internet news on Singapore, the region, China, Japan, Korea, America, India and Europe. The Middle East --- occasionally. Latin America --- almost zero, because it is not relevant to us. Too far away.
Q: What particular Internet sites?
A: Google. I prearrange for news from the various regions to be automatically passed on.
Q: What books or movies have you read or watched recently?
A: I do not watch movies.
A:
Usually I read biographies of interesting people. I am not attracted to
novels --- make-believe, or recreations of whatt people think life
should be.
Q: Any recent one that you enjoyed particularly?
A:
One on Charles de Gaulle. France was lost. He was a nobody. He went to
London and said: "I am France." And he went to Algiers and told Alphonse
Juin, who had obeyed the Vichy government and was in charge there: "As a
Marshal of France, you ought to be ashamed of yourself." That was a
pretty bold man. And he walked back to Paris, of course, with the Allied
troops having cleared the way for him.
Q: What are your foremost preoccupations these days? What are the things that keep you awake?
A:
I think our changing population. With an overall fertility rate of 1.2
--- we have no choice but to take in migrants. It is difficult to get
Singaporeans to change their mindsets. The women are educated. They want
a different lifestyle, not to be stuck with early marriages and
children. They want to travel first, see the world, enjoy life and marry
later, by which time they will have trouble having children.
Q: Any hopes for Singapore?
A:
Well, the hope is that it will keep a steady course and uphold all
these institutions which make it different from the rest of the region.
[302-310]
